Balsam (鳳仙花)

Balsam (鳳仙花)

Original Singer: Yuzuki Yukari

Producer: Kurosa Madoka

Still I'm listening though I'm unplugged

The same with my headphones I always wear on

Now I'd just like to tune out the world

So I close my eyes and slowly drift away

Sometimes wind pushes down my eyelids

The sound of it rushing makes everything dark

When I close my eyes, I go into

A private place where I am alone

Just pretending to be confident, not fooling anyone

Convincing myself, convincing myself

How far will I go to be loved?

Even if I break down, fall, and then cry

Should I still admit to being lonely all the time?

But still, but still, no matter what I say

It's embarrassing if I'm found out to be so...

"You, surely, must be most hated of all?"

No, really the truth is I like to be alone

But still, but still, if I don't pretend

Then I'll be found out to be so pathetic, and I'll be rapidly broken down

Aah

I'm a balsamina, "touch me not"

So please get the message and just "touch me not"

And yet, if you don't fracture the pod

You'll never be able to get to the seed

Always, I'm the one that's left by herself

If everyone else is just off having fun

I was wondering, would my life change

If I was part of the "in group" from the start?

Rather than sitting out when they picked teams or something like that

I just wish I were a girl who was braver than this

Isn't that the cooler way out?

Even if I break down, fall, and then cry

Should I still try talking and becoming their friend?

But still, but still, my pride is in the way

It's embarrassing if I'm found out to be so...

To tell the truth, I don't think I'm jealous

Or maybe it's just I would rather to ignore

I might as well since I'm forever stuck

I'll just be found out to have a broken heart, and I'll be rapidly broken down

Aah

Still so foolish, you guys can't even go to the loo* alone

While I'm behind their backs, while I'm behind their backs

I followed them with a closed eye

Even if I break down, fall, and then cry

Should I still admit to being lonely all the time?

But still, but still, no matter what I say

It's embarrassing if I'm found out to be so...

"You, surely, must be most hated of all?"

No, really the truth is I like to be alone

But still, but still, if I don't pretend

Then I'll be found out to be so pathetic, and I'll be rapidly broken down

*I used loo because it fit. Heheheh loo